its even not until 2 weeks

two weeks ago
I was so excited
to know that I was on paid project

yeah, despite my lacking
I don't know why
they was choosing me

and now
I am not part of that team

they give me feedback
they said my communication skill is lack
they said I look like someone 1year never code
when I saw their email and reasoning
thats all is true

but I still like this
crying
trying to smile

how can I improve my speaking?
how to make me more brave?
how to code?
how to comunicate well?
who can teach me?
when it all came from me?

paid project

life is not getting easier
life must go on
but the thing is
I'm afraid to move on


nothing is going on
I don't have a plan
so, it is not right to say
my plan is sink

but, I just here

my first flight

yesterday is my first flight
i never been in plane before
so i just don't know what to do

fyuh
it is just like riding any other transportation (exclude: ship, I have never been before)

and my ear feel like burst out

when I told someone about it

they said that my ear is cold

so just need to make it warm

and it just an hour flight

but it feels like forever

but yes, it fast

but, if there were any other alternative

i might take that one