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belum sempet posting
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jadi
tunggu inet bener
dan nyelesein draft nya

tunggu postingan tentang
perjalanan ke indrayanti
sama pasta experiment yang lain

packing dulu ya buat ntar malem
mau balik ke kehidupan yang biasa

goes to indrayanti

okay, today post is about my journey
where we go?
we go to indrayanti beach
where it is?
at tepus, gunung kidul, yogyakarta
eh? am i right, please google it

because we dont know which way take us to indrayanti, we using google maps to guide us. using gps.
lets see
it is not to far away then we expected
okay, decided. we trust google map.
after we go up and down, we are out of the track. so we turn around

hmm, i think at that moment.
'is this alternatif road?'
but suddenly, its way getting odd. its really small road. our car still can get the way. but we just say we trust Google map. and it is more odd and odd.
but, yeah. we arrive at our destination, so its okay.

but it is still make a grumble at heart
how come

but, it all vanished when we arrived
it is so beautiful beach
white sand
blue water
soft wave
reef
cliff

SO BEAUTIFUL
kirei

ngerasa ngga mau ngelakuin

karna rasa bersalah
karna ngga mau berubah
ato apapun itu

aku bukan orang baik
aku ngga tau pandangan orang
apa yang mereka lihat

is there anyone out there?
that really know me

i dont want to lie anymore
but my lies has pile up
what to do?

if i tell the truth
everything will ruin
is there still someone?
who can believe me
no matter what
after all this lie

ngga bisa komen

iya sih temen yang satu itu ngga nunjuk aku.
tapi jadi ngerasa.
gimana ngga.
dia ngomel di plurk.
yang punya plurk juga cuma beberapa.
tapi kalo komen ngga tau mau ngomong apa.
ngga komen jadi makin ngerasa buat aku.
iya sih, dia pernah bilang.
plurk tempat segala curhat dia.
jadi ngga buat aku.
lagian dia nyari data yang ngga bisa aku bantu.
huhuhu.
ngerasa bersalah.
temen macam apa aku.

cerita kumpul sabtu 16 maret

gegara kumpul ma temen aneh dan mutusin nonton korea drama.
ngga masalah sih bagi aku.
tapi temen aku nih katanya baru nonton playfull kiss aja buat drama korea.
oke, biasanya kita nonton dorama bareng, kali ini nonton the innocent man yang dimainkan sama joong ki.
episode satu, masih diliat dengan banyak komen ngga penting.
episode dua, masih diliat mpe akhir tetep dengan komen.
episode tiga, tetep nyampe akhir tapi ini nih.
loncat episode limabelas, dan cuma diloncat loncat.
terakhir, liat endingnya yang membingungkan.

oke, stop.
lanjut masak gyoza yang resep nya dapet dari femina.
enak sih, tapi gara gara ngga ada parutan, jahenya dicincang, dan masih kasar.
isinya sisa banyak dan kita bikin omelette.
ngga ada poto nya yaa :

alarm

pertanda baik
ya kan?
kemarin kemarin
semingguan
ngga denger tiap alarm bunyi
bangun kesiangan

tadi
denger
tapi di tunda tunda
akhirnya di matiin
trus tidur lagi
kapan benernya

katanya mau berubah
bilangnya
bangun pagi lebih seger
bisa olahraga
waktu lebih panjang
hidup lebih teratur

butuh bukti bukan janji

tears wont stop

at first i want to cry
so i listen to song
some song from nino

usually it is enough
just to make me cry
but, somehow it is not enough

so, i was watching drama
tokio, message to father
it is toughfull enough

yes, i cry a lot
not about the story
although the story is sad enough

and until now
i can not stop crying

it is about myself
me, right now
is the worst person

trying to running
from reality
that i always believe
will come back
within time

i always lying
but not to myself

i always try
to be honest
with myself
but this week

i just another failure
am i too afraid?
about the future?
but it lies ahead of time

or i just have too many
too many regret?

but if today
i still me this week
nothing change right?

and there will be another regret

but, can i believe this lyric from nino song with title 'doko ni demo aru uta'?

cuek

lagi dan lagi
sadar
aku tuh cuek
ngga peduli sekitar
ha

dingin
mungkin
cuek
iya

terima apa yang  ada
ngga dikasih tahu
ya udah

life still go on

tapi
yang aku tahu
kini
aku punya teman
lagi

ngga seperti dulu
aku berteman
dengan dusta
not real me

sekarang
ku pikir inilah aku
dan
ku harap mereka terima
apa ada nya aku
karna kita teman

teman teman yang dulu
masih
tapi
mungkin
aku yang berubah

pancake ku gagal

ngga tau salahnya apa
kata temen
"bikin pancake gampang"
apanya yang gampang?
kok aku bikin gagal sih

rasanya sih lumayan
tapi ya
beda dari yang di bayangkan

trus bikin apel saus karamel
buat nemenin pancake
tapi gagal juga

huh kenapa sih?
btw, ngga ada fotonya
uda keburu abis karna laper
haha

my hand, my nail

kuku ku berwarna :)
nemu kuteks
kirain uda abis
pas di buka masih ada
yay, its bright
hope everything will be alright :D

puding susu with orea blueberry

akhirnya kesampaian juga bikin puding susu oreo :)
awalnya gegara temen nge share di instagram
dia bikin puding susu oreo
trus pingin deh
sama aja sih kaya bikin puding biasa
pake bubuk agar agar, air, susu bubuk, gula, dan pastinya oreo
tapi kayanya enakan kalo pake susu murni
tapi berhubung ngga ada
ini hasilnya :)

write on 5th March '13

yesterday is a full day. start at 5.55, I wake up, I cooked rice and then take a bath, breakfast, get ready and going at 7.09. I arrive at 7.24, waiting till 7.45 and then going to the place bla bla bla. I stayed at those place until 15.42 and then going back to the first place.

I know I have an appoinment but I got yo campus at 17.12 after pick up my friend. Gladly, my lecture teacher is still there but he still have a conversation, so I go to library first to return the book before the date is past. Come back to lab after buy choco smoothies, and counseling about my TA and then when I want go jome its have been rain. But I have too tired so I decided to still going home. Before, I accompany my friend to buy rice and then I really get home. take a bath at 18.47, get dinner, and theb watching battle royale. its little scary and make me dream and awkward dream. but why in my dream i got to practice jogging with my friends and it was rain when i just started. and why just to jogging i have an instructor. and why i jogging in some place like a cave? so weird, right? ~like i write on a note when i get bored on the class~

untung

di tabrak dari belakang
untung ngga jatuh
ya kan uda lampu merah

awalnya iya aku salah
mau ikut ikutan
tapi kan aku tiba tiba sadar

gegara nge rem mendadak kali ya?
tapi masak iya dia ngga prepare dulu

yauda deh
cukup ngeluhnya

ayo masak masak nge dorama nge fangirling :)

feeling not good

the weather is change too quickly
i think my body can't handle it
start with cough
then now, feeling sick

hope get well soon